A Haunting Past To An Amazing Future...

After a traumatic event took place in 2018 I realized that I had changed. Before I felt untouchable, invincible, and even more, like I knew outcomes of very dangerous situations. Then a storm hit. No. A storm caught up to me and decimated everything in its path. I used to go to parties and do stupid things with my friends just for the hell of it. Now I keep very few close to me. Most family, some friends. I don't go out as often unless it's for work or I just need to think. I have trouble communicating with people that I haven't seen in a while, nevertheless, never met before. Today I realized that I am not who I used to be 2 years ago. Maybe it's for the better, maybe it doesn't change a thing.

Now I see the beauty in life. Though it’s beauty is captivating, it’s so very fragile. There’s so much more to #staysafe than just staying home or following regulations. #staysafe is 2 years too late for me. As most know , especially if you watch my Vlogs, I am in this game to truly make a positive impact on the perspective people have of life. I want #staysafe to be a versatile hashtag that can be used for anything; such as going out with friends, driving, or even just going on a walk. This world may be beautiful but there’s a lot of darkness people can possess. Some people with this darkness don’t even seem like they have it, and some people show it like it’s something to be proud of. The darkness isn’t their personalities, the way they think, or even the way they dress. The darkness in some people is merely their intentions. So I say #staysafe going about your life. You never know what is going to happen on the daily. You may have an idea or plan, but the truth is that things never go in a straight line. There will always be obstacles that block you and doors that will shut right in your face. There will be events that are uncalled for and it could possibly destroy you from the inside. Some things just aren't avoidable, but the one thing to remember is that everything happens for a reason. Whether you believe in a higher power or science, it's all the same. Time is unchangeable and you can't rewind, fast forward, or even pause it. Our future is set and there's nothing we can do to change it. Time has something set for everything and we just have yet to see it. If you believe in a higher power, that entity has something planned for you. I am a christian and I believe in science. I believe that even if I took a different path, the outcome would be the same. I also believe that God had something planned for me after the event. Was the event horrific and unbearable? Yes. It doesn't change the fact that I am in an Amazing place now. If you were to ask me two years ago where I thought I would be, where I am now wouldn't have occurred as a thought. My haunting past truly brought me to where I need to be. Though I hate to admit that such a negative experience brought me to a bright future, it did. That temporary pain that was slowly killing me from the inside eventually turned into something that will flourish. My advice? Stay safe for one, keep going, and be sure to always remember that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. If you believe otherwise, know I was in the same shoes as you, just in my own terms.